1. Watching Faithless
2. Eating pomegranate chocolate chunk ice cream again
3. The dog that I watched behaved herself
4. Reading more of Renee's story
5. My mother putting up my new lamp
6. Mireia's emails

1. My mother buying me a new lamp as a replacement for the one she broke
2. Getting my book back intact that I lent someone
3. Reading Clockwork Phoenix 2
4. Feeling less sick as the day went on
5. Feeling calm today and not needing Klonopin
6. Nice emails from Amber and Mireia that further cheered me up
7. The dog behaving well while April and Phil are gone

1. Being in a good mood today
2. Good work news for Mireia
3. Spending time with Michael before leaving
4. Finished reading Under in the Mere by Catherynne Valente
5. My mother fixing the fuses in my house
6. Writing an outline for a new short story I intend to start tomorrow
7. My really cute Webkinz Blufadoodle stuffed animal to cuddle (that Michael bought me) -- it's a peacock-like bird that's blue and purple

1. Watching the rest of the Kimagure Orange Road OAV's
2. Eating a brownie
3. Cuddling with Michael
4. Starting to read Under in the Mere by Catherynne Valente
5. Getting great emails from Mireia, Amber, and April

I wish I were as good as Mr. Rogers!

http://edition.cnn.com/2008/LIVING/wayoflife/07/28/mf.mrrogers.neighbor/index.html

1. Getting tickets to see The Nutcracker ballet
2. Reading Breath by Donna Jo Napoli
3. Getting cheesecake ice cream with Oreos mixed in at Coldstone Creamery
4. Having supportive friends
5. Watching the final ANTM episode of the season and Glee

1. Watching the Kimagure Orange Road OAV's (the first 4)
2. Having warm blankets
3. Some critiques on my writing (at least for one story) that I can use when I re-edit my last novel.
4. Having a Facebook message from an old childhood friend who wants to meet me again.
5. Amber emailing me even though she's overwhelmed.
6. Learning some important personality characteristics of an ex-friend.
7. Having my mp3 player working properly.

1. Reading The Anger Habit in Relationships by Carl Semmelroth
2. Celebrating Michael's birthday!
3. Going out to eat and having cake
4. Buying gifts (and Michael buying me a blue/purple stuffed bird!)
5. A soothing email from Mireia

1. Rewatching Glee
2. Good emails
3. Being trusted with secrets
4. Watching the last episode of season 5 of Hercules
5. Seeming to be doing better physically

1. Reading Bound by Donna Jo Napoli
2. Eating a large chicken finger of my favorite kind
3. Going out to a store for a little bit
4. Knowing someone didn't mean to upset me
5. Mrs. Bates cuddling with me

1. Watching an episode of Hercules again, finally
2. Reading The Diamond Secret by Suzanne Weyn
3. Reading The Anger Habit: Proven Principles To Calm The Stormy Mind by Carl Semmelroth
4. My mother giving me maple nut fudge
5. Planning gifts for friends

I just read something in a "feed" I think it's called, and it made me think about how I write. I tend to write a lot. Sometimes I think I have hypergraphia. I keep several journals and write a lot of fiction and a lot of emails. As far as fiction goes, I will write all kinds, but with the same few elements I really love (magical and fairy tale references, references to people I know, and references to my ideals). I think I'm usually a pretty good writer, but sometimes I make dumb grammatical errors. Or spelling errors. Usually they aren't the "typical" errors, but some weird variation of a word or phrase that sometimes changes the whole meaning. I have to doublecheck awhile after something is written to catch mistakes in typing. If I reread something right away I still see what I intended to write instead of what I actually wrote. Also I write using stream-of-consciousness usually. I don't dawdle over every word, looking for the perfect word. Sometimes something will strike me and I will go back and add it, but I write poems very quickly and write whatever comes to my mind. Also I wrote my novels quickly. The last one is 200,000 words and I wrote it in a month (probably manic) and I think it is my best novel so far. Unfortunately, I tend to write more about my obsessions than anything else:-(

1. Reading Honor Your Anger by Beverly Engel
2. Watching Space Odyssey 2010
3. Getting Under in the Mere by Catherine Valente in the mail
4. Michael helping me with a frustrating situation
5. My mother buying me a new toilet
6. A relieving email conversation

"I love you" to whomever was there, because unless it was a nurse or someone, I'd probably love them.

1. Having a good mental health day
2. Eating a hamburger without freaking out (I usually stick to the same few foods)
3. Good emails
4. Great episodes of America's Next Top Model and Glee
5. Finishing Iron Man
6. Spending time with Michael
7. Finished reading Joanna's installment of her story (need to do Renee's next)

1. Feeling special to Mireia
2. Seeing April and scrapbooking and just having fun
3. Watching the first half of Iron Man
4. Being in a good mood all day!
5. Wearing my newest sweater and jeans in a size smaller than I have been wearing (I may have lost a few lbs, which I am allowed to do so by my psychiatrist)

1. My mood drastically improving after extra Klonopin and Buspar
2. reading The Immortal Unicorn short story collection
3. Eating a "Hershey" pie
4. Finding out I had a couple of misunderstandings with friends and correcting things
5. Something I ordered finally shipping
6. Probably getting to talk to my psychiatrist tonight about my problems

I am supposedly a huge grudge holder, but I'm not so sure that is accurate. Often I give people many, many chances, they continue to mistreat me, and then I give up on them. Or someone mistreats me from the start, I don't know how to deal with it, and I try to escape and never talk to them. During actual arguments or when bad things happen that are someone's fault (who doesn't seem sorry) I will often confront them now (unlike college and prior). If the person continues acting meanly/inappropriately then I will usually distance myself, but sometimes after many second chances. I do have some grudges against very mean people who were very rude to me and didn't care about my feelings, though. But most people I forgive if they did something wrong, and I don't have any special difficulties apologizing if I were in the wrong. I don't think it's that hard to win back my friendship and trust. However, the person has to be truly sorry and changed their ways. I really dislike having negative feelings between myself and someone else.

I think romantic chemistry can be either. And I think chemistry can also be instantaneous for platonic relationships. In my life I feel I've experienced both, but there isn't one of the two that led to better relationships or longer-lasting relationships. I have given people many chances and regretted it. I just got beat down more, usually. Things didn't get resolved like I always hope they will. There are a few exceptions, though. I have never fallen in love with someone I didn't particularly like or desire at first. What would make me think I was in love with them if I neither liked nor desired them...? Ah... the key phrase must be "at first." But the answer is still no.